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Monday, January 14, 2002

I started building my little baby's memory book yesterday.

I went to my doctor's on thursday, 01/10/02 and she confirmed what I already knew. She also took a picture of what was happening to me down there and showed me the little sack where my baby will be growing. It looks like a dark bean in a space of static grey and if you look closely, you can see a light circle within the bean. That's our baby.

I had my first real bout of nausea this weekend. I watched Ezra for Maru on Saturday and the day slipped by without lunch or dinner for me. At 7:00 PM I was dizzy and hungry and nauseated. I almost couldn't eat anything, but I took it slowly. I ate an apple first, then a banana, then some crackers. Then Killy made me a spinach salad and I started feeling better when I got some sunflower seeds. I felt real good after that and was able to bowl a really bad game.

Killy says that he wants the baby to be full of love. So he makes it a point to be happy for me and the baby. He knows that everything that I feel, the baby feels too. He is always smiling and laughing when I come home from work. He cleans the house and washes the dishes. He tries to give me what I want, my love. He plays the guitar for the baby and kisses the baby in my tummy. He urges me to rest and not to worry. He walks with me so we can be healthy and have an easy birth because he says he doesn't want the baby to have a pointy head. He is absolutely wonderful.

And I am happy. It's so amazing to wake up every morning and be aware of this baby of love growing inside of me. Every minute of the day is filled with me thinking about the little person inside of me. Today, I am six weeks pregnant. Buds have formed on the baby bean that will become the arms and feet. There is a heartbeat too. I am to see my doctor at the end of the month to get a listen on the heart beat. The baby is now an embryo and is about 1/17 of an inch long. The umbilical cord develops. The eyes and ears begin to form as well as an opening for the mouth. The heart has begun to pump blood and most of the other organs are well under construction. Today, I love my baby more than I did yesterday. Tomorrow, I will love my baby more than I do today and on and on and on.

Killy will teach the baby how to tie a tennis shoe. How to ride a bike, to play catch, to fly a kite. The baby will fly lots of kites. We will teach our baby how to be curious and how to laugh at life's silly things.

And the baby has cousins already. Ezra will be one year old and then some when the baby is born. Diego will be six? Desma will be one year too. They will play and fight and laugh and run together. They will teach the baby what they have learned in life and my baby will drink it all in. Then everything will be even more wonderful than it is now.

I can't believe how incredibly happy I am.

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